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ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF…MY NAME IS JAY L TO THE O-V…nah nah I’ll leave that to Hov, but I do want to tell you what I've been up to and who I am at this moment. If you are a follower then it shouldn’t be hard to tell I stepped away from my coaching business for a better half of a year. The truth is, life has been whooping my ass lol. Nothing I didn’t sign up for, though. And due to the amount of struggle I have overcome along with what I’ve sacrificed, I experienced an intense level up spiritually.
Because of that, I am now your ACCOUNTABILITY COACH. I am not longer focusing on marketing, but I will still incorporate manifesting and mindset techniques. I will get into all the details of what that entails at a later date, but I want to address what this blog is REALLY about. I may lose some followers or raise some concerns speaking on this candidly, even in 2025. But I am NOT a secretive person.
I move discreetly and reveal what I want in time, like an open book. I have prayed over revealing this publicly for nearly 3 years. Trying to figure out how to say it or when. Or if it would be worth even saying it. But this year is meant to be transformative. I am meant to shed a lot to get to my new stage, and I will do so starting with this revelation and the REAL reason you opened this blog.
Some of you may know from years ago, and some of you may have just met me a couple years ago. No matter where you fall, I want to highlight a part of my life that was highly significant to my life path. I spent a few years as a VERY successful OnlyFans model. If you are new to this and find yourself shocked by this revelation, I can understand why. And though it would be my biggest hope that you won’t judge me from a self-righteous space, I know some of you still will.
I want to highlight that I never hid this from a SOUL, I just didn’t see the point in openly sharing that information when it wasn’t relevant to my Livin’ Lovelii brand. But then I kept hearing, “you are the brand.” So after years of pondering, I decided this is how I can share the news and shape my own narrative. God is taking me to a new level, and in that level it requires complete authenticity, vulnerability, and transparency. It requires me baring enough of myself to get out of my own way.
There is, was, and will never be any shame about my life as a digital s*x worker. I reserved this information because despite my lack of shame, I know others will project their desire for me to embody that emotion for their benefit. I know all about the projection and hate others throw on women like me. Those that think I deserve the shame even though I simply don’t feel it shrugs. Those that project their perceived value of me under the guise of “self-respect” (notice they never tell men to respect themselves).The women, especially, who will regard themselves as better than, even though they probably mismanage their bodies way worse with multiple kids with the wrong m(a/e)n (hmmph). I just didn’t care to hear the “self-righteousness” until I made myself into who I am NOW.
Now, I want to attract my real tribe. The people that know who I really am. It's time I embrace authenticity. I used to think telling people about my alternative lifestyle would distract others from the work I was called to do, but this year God told me to be me. The multifaceted, multi-talented woman that I am who can, will, and has been successful at nearly everything she has put her mind to. I’m not here to be anyone’s role model or aspiration, but I am here to build you up and show you what’s possible for any woman from any walk of life.
Now, I want to highlight the ways in which sex work shaped me and changed my life. I hope nothing I say comes off as braggadocios, but I will never dim my pride or light to make others comfortable. I personally don’t believe in being humble; it is the opposite of confidence. And if me doing well makes you sick, I hope you stay sick, respectfully. As a digital sex worker, my highest earning year was around $250,000 (screenshots below). If you read that with any hate or doubt, or if you want to undermine it because of how it was earned, I welcome you to one day make this money in ANY method. Until then, just say “good for her” so you won’t miss that blessing…ijs.
$250,000 earned in any way is HARD WORK. I will always hold my head high about it, even if I never make that much again (I will). I used that money to pay off debts, invest, and start multiple business ventures. I was able to travel all over the country and I learned soooo much. I was a marketing and promoting genius as a SW. I ran every aspect of my business, so I had to learn to be more organized too. I NEVER expected to do as well as I did. It was all in fun but quickly turned into a career.
I said it before, I will say it again, I am NOT here to brag. But I will highlight what the pros and cons were to this lifestyle choice. SW grew my confidence in the most unbelievable ways. It wasn’t the attention from the men, I was getting that before anyway, and it’s not worth much shrugs, but it was the ability to attract lots of money in a way that allowed me to be free and feel sexy while doing it. I was able to do what a lot of women wish they could do, and that’s express my sexuality unapologetically. I was able to post sexy pics and posts without a second thought. I was able to work when I wanted, pick up and go when I wanted, and buy whatever I wanted. I experienced a deep level of peace and freedom that I was not used to. I was able to have the BEST year of my life.
SW also taught me to appreciate femininity and feminine beings a lot more. I was able to discover multiple forms of expressing my femininity. I was able to value and appreciate womanhood. Sure, men viewed us as sexual objects (they do it regardless), but my allure alone attracted THOUSANDS of men to spend $ on me without ever being in my presence. It is empowering for some women, and I was one of them. IYKYK
So why did I quit if it was so great? Truthfully, I was burnt out. I outgrew it all. The money couldn’t keep me from leaving and focusing on my true path and purpose. See, sexwork was a means to an end. It was not meant to be a long-term career path. Experiencing another spiritual elevation led me away from it. It wasn’t that I felt “too good” for it, I actually loved it for what it was, but I knew it was time to let it go. I truly understand how women can get sucked into the lifestyle, but I walked away from it before it became something I no longer respected. I was just exhausted. But SW isn’t an easy job to just leave and come back to, even if you want to, so there is no going back for me.
The money was great and I miss the freedom that came with it, but I heard God tell me in 2022 I was going to have to sacrifice big to receive big. I was going to have to lose things to gain a lot. SW, online or in person, is FAR from a low-stress gig. It takes a lot of work, sleepless nights, early mornings, and discipline if you want to be successful. Don’t be fooled into the thought that s*xwork isn’t work because you like sex, lol. $250k earned is WORK, and if it isn’t, why haven’t you made that much money yet? And if you have made that much, then YOU KNOW.
The downside is the hate you get, but surprisingly the love supersedes it. I was trashed a lot online by people that called themselves my friends. People I grew up with and bore their soul to me at some point. All because I did it freely and unabashedly. It was mostly women, and men that I likely always turned down, going in on me. But I knew it was jealousy along with the patriarchy doing its thing.
Since stepping away, in all realness I’ve been having to build myself back up again. Feelings of being a failure, fraud, or not being good enough to transition to coaching showed up. Because the last couple years of not making the same money, I was struggling mentally and emotionally without fully taking note of it. I began to move desperately in my new business and that was repelling blessings and sabotaging what I already had. I lost EVERYTHING by walking away. I wasn’t intentionally making that kind of sacrifice, because I was fighting myself to let go and hold on simultaneously. Until I was pushed to leave it behind. I’m glad I did. Because now my faith is stronger and I’m the most patient I have ever been.
I was able to help so many women within that lifestyle. I have coached a handful to make and get money, in and OUT of s*xwork. Because of s*xwork, I was able to do a lot, and I feel like I should be able to pop my shit freely without others feeling I should hold shame.3 degrees, 3 professional certifications, 5 published books, and 3 published courses, I’m doing something right. I’d like to say that despite where my path WAS, I will continue to move forward and do MAGNIFICENT things. I was one of the highest paid girls of the year, as a SW, and I’m just getting started with my life’s purpose, Livin’ Lovelii. Just watch where I grow 🙂
PS. If you are a SW or aspiring SW girlie reading this, I still got the tips. As promised the SS below is of my highest earning year, not including the money I made outside of my two OF pages. Reach out to me for coaching of ANY kind, and join our new, upcoming newsletter, “Keppin’ it Lovelii”.
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